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Change can be a good thing

I stopped writing several months ago due to a situation in my life. I could not write, in fact I did not journal and I have been journaled for years.

Through the last 6 months God has done an amazing work in my life. He has changed me, healed me and carried me through a very difficult and life altering situation. (more on that to come)

There have been a lot of changes in me, some of the best changes in my life. They have also been some of the hardest changes in my life, but change is a good thing when that change is done by God. In fact sometimes the hardest changes that we go through end up giving us the things in life that God wants us to have.

I am writing again, it is a process and I will be posting more to this blog site and will also be updating this site.

This is a new journey that I am on and I am very excited about it, I hope you join me.

Much love
Tracy

I’m Back

The past three weeks have both great and difficult all at the same time. First off I got sick, and for two weeks tried to cure it myself. Well, let me just say that did not work. I finally went to the doctor and was given a shot, a round of antibiotics and cough medicine. The physician told me I had bronchitis and a severe sinus infection. Now that was on Monday, on Wednesday I was offered a new position at work, which I excepted.

So, as you may have guessed, I have been dealing with sickness, I still have a small cough but feeling much better. I have also been training and getting use to my new position. Oh, let me also mention that my family and I are also helping our dear friends with a new church start. So, these reasons have been why I have not written in a few weeks.

Now that things have settled down I will be writing again and continuing with both of the series that I started, A Mother’s Heart and Insecurity.

So, look forward to another post this weekend.

Love and have missed you all.

I’m tired of insecurity (Security Series)

One of my favorite Bible teachers and author is Beth Moore. She has written a book called “So Long Insecurity”, which happens to an issue that I have had to deal with all my life. So, when I decided to begin reading the book, I was not expecting that God would have me blog about this subject (at least not yet). But, here I am and I feel like that is exactly what God wants me to do.

I have really been hesitant about starting mainly because this is such a sensitive subject for me. For me I started out very young having security issues and it did not help that I carried it over into my adult life. Now, I would love to say that insecurity is completely behind me but it is not, it is something that I have continued to work through. The more I thought about me and the difficult time I have with insecurity I figured I am probably not alone. In fact I know that I am not. It also made me think of some questions.

Why do so many women have a difficult time with insecurity?

Why do we continually try to find security in so many different places?

Why do we tend to believe the world verses trusting that our security, worth and value should be found only in Christ?

I welcome all comments and look forward to you joining me on this journey. I don’t know about you but I am tired of insecurity. My desire is to draw closer to Christ and to be able to rest in the security that only Christ can provide.

Would you be willing to sacrifice?

The beginning of the year I started reading through the bible with a group of wonderful ladies. Last week one of my readings was Genesis 22, as I was reading this section just spoke to me and really made me think.

(Genesis 22:1-12 ESV)

After these things God tested Abraham and said to him, “Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” He said, “Take your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah, and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.” So Abraham rose early in the morning, saddled his donkey, and took two of his young men with him, and his son Isaac. And he cut the wood for the burnt offering and arose and went to the place of which God had told him. On the third day Abraham lifted up his eyes and saw the place from afar. Then Abraham said to his young men, “Stay here with the donkey; I and the boy will go over there and worship and come again to you.” And Abraham took the wood of the burnt offering and laid it on Isaac his son. And he took in his hand the fire and the knife. So they went both of them together. And Isaac said to his father Abraham, “My father!” And he said, “Here I am, my son.” He said, “Behold, the fire and the wood, but where is the lamb for a burnt offering?” Abraham said, “God will provide for himself the lamb for a burnt offering, my son.” So they went both of them together. When they came to the place of which God had told him, Abraham built the altar there and laid the wood in order and bound Isaac his son and laid him on the altar, on top of the wood. Then Abraham reached out his hand and took the knife to slaughter his son. But the angel of the LORD called to him from heaven and said, “Abraham, Abraham!” And he said, “Here I am.” He said, “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him, for now I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.”

This story in Genesis 22 about Abraham and Isaac has always been one of my very favorites. It is a true story of faith in the almighty God and knows that He will provide. When you read the story it amazes me how when the Lord cam to Abraham, told him to sacrifice his only son; Abraham set out to do it without question. Each time I read this passage it makes me think of the times when God wanted me to do something and instead of just doing it I question.

Now, Abraham was and still is considered a man of great faith. Even with a difficult request, he was faithful that God would provide. Look at verse 7, Isaac asks where is the offering; Abraham with tremendous faith says “God Himself will provide the lamb for the burnt offering, my son.” That is and amazing sentence, because even though God had sent Abraham out to sacrifice his only son Abraham had faith that God would make the provision.

If God made provision for Abraham then, God who loved us so much that He sent His only son would make provision for us. When was the last time God asked you to sacrifice something? Did you do it without question, without pouting without hesitation? When was the last time God told you to do something and you just did it, having faith that if a provision was needed God would provide?

Would love your thoughts.

Tracy

Looking to the Past and Going Forward

It seems that every year around this time many of us are writing down our New Year resolutions. You know the things we did in years past that we no longer want to do in the up coming year or things we want to do better in the up coming year. I have done the same thing in years past, but three years ago I was challenged to do something different.

A few years ago my husband had stepped down from a position at a church and to say the least I was hurt and broken. Looking back now I had been in a difficult season in my life. I was depressed and felt as if the entire world was against me. I literally wore my hurt like a badge. I also felt as if I had no friends or at least no real friends. I felt abandoned. I thought I was alone but I was not God never left me. It was during this time that I realized in order to regain ground I was going to have to run to God with all my might. We started attending a church and little by little God was restoring me not back to where I was but rather to where He wanted me.

That December just a week before the new year the pastor preached a sermon that spoke directly to the part of me that was still hurting and in need of healing. I do not remember the entire sermon but what I do remember was this: “Don’t take the junk you are caring this year into the next.” For the next few days I just could not get that phrase out of my head. So I began to pray and just ask God what I needed to do.

Over the last few days of the year God began to reveal what I needed to do and that was to ask for forgiveness because I have been holding unforgiveness in my heart against some people. I kept hearing the question “Do you want to keep going like you are right now?” I was going to continue into this new year with unforgiveness and still broken. I then sat down at the computer and made  a list of those I needed to forgive and I wrote them a letter. I did not bring up what they did or how I was hurt I simply took responsibility for not forgiving. New’s Year’s Eve I put those letters in envelopes and put them in the mail box praying over them and then I released them and told the enemy that he no longer had a hold over me it was done. When I put them into the mail and walked away I felt lighter and better than I had in months. Now please understand in writing those letters it did not excuse what they did or did not do that is not what it was about, it had to do with me not them. God will deal with them but at that moment He, my Father was dealing with me and what I needed to do.

I learned a great deal from this difficult season in my life but what I remember each year around this time is the statement. I have no desire to take any of the junk from this year into next year. So you may ask how is that done.

1. Pray ask God if there is anything in your life that you need to let go of. Things like anger, bitterness, unforgiveness…….

2. Then ask God how He wants you to deal with it. For me it was writing a letter. For you it may be to go to that person.

3. Do what God says to do.

4. Remember you may or may not be received but you have to be obedient to God. I never heard back from the letters however one of those letters restored a friendship with a couple a year later.

I still make a new years resolution list(mainly because I just love a good list), but I also include doing a spiritual check to make sure that I am not taking any extra baggage into the New Year that is not welcome.